Flowering…spreading, disseminating, blooming…what a foil to yesterday’s “Outsider”!
It’s almost as though I am being challenged to face my outsider-ness (if I may make up a word) and devise alternatives to my ingrained outlook. In fact, it is the exact thing that I find so incredibly difficult to do. It’s not that I don’t want to – who doesn’t want to spread happiness and wisdom!? – it’s just that my fear of vulnerability keeps me from exposing myself many times.
I am certain that I want to improve those aspects of my life, but am a little shaky on how to begin. When you spend your whole life building walls, it’s hard to wake up one day and say, “I just want to see the horizon!” You have to either climb over the walls or tear them down before you see that vista. That’s where I am now. I know what I want, but I need to work through the well-established obstacles in order to get there. It may take some time, but I love having a goal and I have no greater reason than my child, for whom I want to be a positive force, influence, and mentor. To be able to release my inhibitions and fears to be a more confident, aware, present, and joyous person is probably one of the best gifts I can give my child.
So, just for today, some ideas for how to spread happiness and enlightenment:
- smile and say “hello” to each person I see
- engage fully in every conversation I have
- don’t be slow with a hug (if appropriate)
- listen intently
- let down my guard and share a little bit of my joy with others
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Zen wants you living, living in abundance, living in totality, living intensely – not at the minimum as Christianity wants you, but at the maximum, overflowing.
Your life should reach to others. Your blissfulness, your benediction, your ecstasy should not be contained within you like a seed. It should open like a flower and spread its fragrance to all and sundry – not only to the friends but to the strangers too.
This is real compassion, this is real love: sharing your enlightenment, sharing your dance of the beyond.
Osho Christianity, the Deadliest Poison and Zen… Chapter 5
The Queen of Rainbows is like a fantastic plant that has reached the apex of its flowering and its colors. She is very sexual, very alive, and full of possibilities. She snaps her fingers to the music of love, and her zodiac necklace is placed in a way that Venus lies over her heart. The sleeves of her garment contain an abundance of seeds, and as the wind blows the seeds will be scattered to take root where they may. She is not concerned whether they land on the soil or on the rocks – she is just spreading them everywhere in sheer celebration of life and love. Flowers fall on her from above, in harmony with her own flowering, and the waters of emotion swirl playfully beneath the flower on which she sits.
divine disorder 